passed away 3 years ago today. i can remember that day, that phone call, like it was yesterday, and even though i don’t think that i have fully grieved her loss, as i type this the tears, they are a flowing.

anyhow, i know that i have posted this before, but i wanted to do so again, if you would indulge me…

i miss you mom, more than you know…

My mom… 

Passed away today. 

I haven’t begun to grieve yet though, although I am sure that will come. Busy looking after my father, dealing with the after death things that are inevitable, and just myriad other things that come with elderly parents, one with dementia, and one, until today, in hospital/hospice. 

She was truly an extraordinary woman. Was raised on lighthouse islands, bought my parents first house, raised two boys, saw the world, and was, in my opinion, a very talented painter. 

Always well dressed. Never smoke, drank, and wouldn’t say shit if she had a mouthful. 

64 years with my father as well. She deserves a special place in heaven for that alone. LOL.  

I saw her four days this week, in the hospice where she was, but funny enough, if you want to look at it that way, I didn’t say goodbye until today. I guess I couldn’t bring myself to do so, but today, well, today I thought it was time. She died an hour or so later. After I had left, and 5 minutes before my brother and his wife arrived. 

Her urn arrived today too, and the company it was sent from, is actually named the same as her maiden name. Go figure. I am sure that she and Rod Serling had a hand in that. 

I loved her. Unconditionally, without reservation and would have given my life for her, if that need arose. 

The first child of this family, adopted at 6 months old, and raised with love, patience, caring and always, always, always treated as if I were their own flesh and blood. 

I love you mom, and I know that you are in a better place now. It cannot have been fun for you, being bedridden for the last year or so. And having to deal with a life that was really no longer yours. 

You were my protector. You were my friend. And most of all, well, you were my little mommy. 

I miss you. Will always miss you. And you will always have my love and admiration. 

Rest easy my mommy and know that those who are left behind will always do our best to live life fully, and in celebration of your amazing life. 

As always, 

Thank you for listening, and, 

I bid you, 

Peace