number of posts, and then for some reason, life, or ‘squirrel’ got in the way, and they were stopped. i really, one day, should cobble them together and post them. talk about an odd post that day, LOL.

at any rate, here i sit once again, I’m so Afraid playing in the background (live Fleetwood Mac for reference) and wondering just what i need to do to alter, no alter is incorrect, perhaps adjust, or recalibrate my current state of existence, to one that is more conducive to how i not only think it should be, but, in my very humble opinion, how it was meant to be.

Single. By choice i might add. As i mentioned to someone today, my brain is slowly positioning itself and its’ processes to think of me as a one, not a two. takes some doing i have to tell you, seeing as how, for the last few years i haven’t been a one. well, maybe a one and a half, not a full two.

the time spent taking care of my mom and dad were days and weeks spent being what i was. a son. looking out for the people that raised him. nothing more. nothing less. not a lot of time to think about being more than just that.

but now, with my tides having turned, and in the process of turning again, and, for reference, Slow Night Whiskey blues on the old music box, i find myself wondering if this is what my life will be. solitary days and nights, talking to the walls, sitting at my computer with something akin to Thor Heyerdahl on the Kon Tiki. seeking, searching, for something that wasn’t where it was, but hopefully will be where it is.

so many mistakes in the past few years. been written about on these pages, so i won’t bore you with them, or belabour the fact that i indeed was a numbskull.

however, light beckons at the proverbial end of the tunnel, or so i wake up every morning with that thought firmly ensconced in my mind. you have to, you know, wake up every day, thinking, knowing, that the day ahead is going to be better than the one before, because, as we all know, there is no tomorrow, it is always today.

saw a place the other day, a house this time, not an apartment, or flat, as i like to use, and i was quite favourably surprised by what i saw. i went in to the showing, with some suppositions that were changed by the time i spent touring the property.

it’s too big for one person, and quite honestly, i am not sure it will still be on the market when i am able to pull the proverbial trigger, however, life does happen for a reason, so i am going to travel hopefully on this one.

but yes, too big for just me, and, truth be told, all of the places that i have seen are too big for just me, and the spaces to a degree, some of them at any rate, would be left unused. however, this last place, funny enough, as big as it is, i would use more of it every day. at least, that is what i think at this moment in time.

not sure where this is going to go next, so, even though this is a short one, it is a one nonetheless.

so, as always, i hope that you and yours are not in any area of conflict, and are all safe, and healthy.

and, as always,

i bid you,

peace.