Easiest of days.

As a rule I am not a fan of today, tomorrow, a week from now, or this season. Too commercial. Too false, too much over inflated sense of being nice to each other.

Plus, I am alone. Yes, I know, this is by and large my fault, mea maxima culpa as I am wont to quote now and again.

My brain and I, see things differently, and we see this season as one big build up to a massive letdown in January.

And, well, I miss my parents. I miss my son too. My youngest to be precise. I have not heard from him in 4 or 5 months, and, as much as I don’t want to admit it, because that to me would show weakness, it hurts.

Can I share this with anyone in my ever-diminishing orbit? Are you nuts? What planet are you currently residing on?

That brain of mine though, to every problem there is a solution. At least one. And you know, there isn’t always just one solution to a problem. Sometimes there are shades of whichever monotone version of grey, or gray, that you choose.

I can’t help it. Yes, ok, my IQ isn’t the highest, it’s not bad, but it’s not Einstein level, however my cranial matter just doesn’t like not being able to fix things.

Also, there is the deep-down ever-present feeling that I am just here to pay the bills, or to save the world. Some of it, I will cop to, is my doing, and yes, I know, NO should be a word in my lexicon, and so should the phrase ‘I’m sorry, I cannot do this at this time’

Just not sure how, at this advanced age, 63, I am going to work that into my somewhat damaged psyche.

At any rate, life is life is, and on I go with it. Seeing as how it goes on with or without my approval, that would be the most prudent of courses of action.

So, I continue striving to get better, pushing towards learning every day, and making sure that the people who still care about me, are taken care of to the best of my, at times, very limited abilities.

For the season, I wish you and yours nothing but all the happiness you can stand.

And, as always, I bid you,

Peace.