admonished of late, and well, in the past as well, for using ‘just a guy’ as a descriptor for how i see myself.

also, full disclosure; i wrote this for the most part, yesterday while face down on a massage table for 90 minutes. just wanted you to know, if you hadn’t sussed it out already, just how my brain tends to work when left its’ own devices. 🙂

at any rate, being admonished. huh. well, you see, it’s like this (favourite saying of my son’s) i truly don’t see myself as anything other than that.

i wrote recently about being mostly invisible. i stand by that premise with caveats.

and, i am, just a guy. i haven’t done anything. oh sure, i have been nice to some, and helped a few more, but truly i say to you, i haven’t really done, anything of note to warrant me thinking that i am more than what i am.

it was said of me, to me, about me, something, a long time ago, that i had no ego. well, ID, EGO, SUPEREGO as dear ole Siggy F once postulated. I think that we all have them, just that perhaps, and i’m not in ole Sigmunds league mind you, but perhaps we lose or bury one or more of those and get on with using only what remains.

For me, i think, it is the superego. Yeah, not overly grandiose thinking on my part, so don’t think that I am George Reeves come back to life. (he was superman for the record) I just feel that given how i am, and what i do, this is the most apt way of describing me to others. Just a guy.

I have met many a personage in my lifetime, more than some, not as much as some others. But in my travels, whilst seeing some of the more shitty sides of humanity, I have come across those of you that truly are exceptional, and are more deserving of accolades and plaudits than yours truly.

However, I shall endeavour to indulge those of you who seem to feel that i am more than ‘just a guy’ and refrain from describing myself thus.

I do what i do. That cannot be helped. And i was raised to be humble. Hasn’t always been the case i will admit, as there was a time when most likely i was perceived to be an arrogant asshole. Time though, softens and weathers out the rough edges, like a stone in a rushing river.

Thank you, for being here, and as always, i hope that you and yours are safe and not in any areas of conflict,

And, as always, I bid you,

Peace.